Melody,

As a fellow martial artist- though not in Kyokushinkai. I have trained or played in many (roughly thirty) styles, and I did toy with the ideas of Kyokushinkai, though thare is no school nearby. Eventually I settled in a Koryu style that was particularly well suited to me.

I am curious if the hemmorage was caused by the tournaments or training, or if it was something else. Anyway, I suppose that is relatively immaterial.

The point I want to make is this. Try and read without rejecting my point out of hand. Doctors- while often brilliant scientific minds, are not infallible. They are smart, and yes, they had to go to school for eight or ten years before they could even practice medicine, and even then, they had to work their way up, I know it’s hard and they have to be very smart, but my point is simply that they are still no more than men and women.

I hope that you understand the following, you CAN do whatever you want to. I realize that is a cliche and you’ve probably heard it many times before, but let me try and do it in a different way, that might click with you a little better. The martial realm is a very direct way to do that. Go to a dojo somewhere nearby where you are. If there’s not a Kyokushinkai school, then so be it. Also, to get re-acclamated to the idea of training, you may want to try an art that is a little less physically demanding. Martial arts are all the same, and all different. It is so apparent to me from where I stand now, that there is no difference between nothing and everything. A martial art is only as good as it’s teacher’s and it’s students.

The gist, I suppose, is if you really do miss it, at least if you miss it enough, you will go forth and seek out a new place of training, and re-enter the martial world with twenty-three years of catch-up learning to do, and take whatever steps are necessary to keep going, to start over. That goes for everybody else who reads this and has ever been told that they can’t do something they love ever again, and just doesn’t try. Don’t take the word of somebody else just because you think they know more than you- how do you think the acceptance of tyranny begins?

Make whatever changes to your training need to be made to keep you safe, but try again, and try harder.

Next comment: "I don't see why it can't be used. If it [...]"
Previous comment: "I trained in the Kyokushin style under m [...]"